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Monday, January 5, 2015

Ohh my god, what have I done!

Just now, in the last few days I really saw what you meant...
I have indeed treated you so badly, so long. Every time you wanted my love I pushed you away, ohh god ...
I don't even know why I have done it, and It was really unintentionally, when you said I knew all that and done. No I didn't really see what I was doing, my head was stuck in my ass. Holy shit Viki I am so SORRY!!! That is not how I wanted to treat you! Ohh boy..
I failed to show you how I really wanted to show you my love, my care, be a part of you. Holy crap... Just now I realize what I have done, I really didn't mean. 
That is something that has no reason, if earlier I said that you lied and upset me and I got sad, well the behavior was really really hurtful on my part and you are not the one to blame. I AM! 
Kiska, I really didn't mean to hurt you, it is all my fault. 
Wow, I really didn't see how I treated you. Now that I realize it, it's too late. 
But I am glad someone treats you good.
That makes you happy. 

One thing I know for sure, today I promised God and myself that I will never ever hurt someone else, what I did to you, I couldn't see, I don't know why, and that is my sin. My mistake. 

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