Patience and Time

Hey, I just figured out something...
I woke up today, 7/1/2015, a new year and we are not together,
the weather is storming with tears of crying angels.
In hopes you might read this someday, maybe you won't but I let this be taken care of by fate.
Just now, when I was walking through the storm, the drops of rain all over my body, wind blowing so hard that the only thing I wanted to do is to hug you, and make you feel the warmth of my body.
Then ... then happened the most "Ohh" moment I ever had in my life.

Dejavu that everything actually happened and then my body told me something that shocked me.
All you wanted at the day you gave me another chance was me to melt your defenses down.
You wanted to leave me because you though I wasn't strong enough to handle you in the future, that if that's the situation now and I am breaking so in the future I will surely break, Wrong!
I was learning, and I am doing it slow but I finally realized,
You wanted me to melt down the pain,
melt down the hurt,
melt down everything that made you feel that way.
because Only I know everything about you, even without words.

*POWER DROPPED DOWN BY STORM IN MIDDLE OF WRITTEN, THOUGHT I LOST ALL BUT LUCKILY HALF WAS AUTOMATICALLY SAVED, ITS LIKE GOD TRIED TO TELL ME SOMETHING :),*

Only I can stare deep into your eyes and really see how you feel and what you think about, only I don't need a single word from you. You just wanted me to be the strong man you met. And with time you saw me breaking down, and you believed that I might fail someday. You didn't want to leave, but you did it because you thought that's the only thing that will be good for you in the future, well... maybe? who knows. But one thing you forgot, I wasn't wrecking or becoming weak, I was lost. I had to go through a journey alone without you to understand many things about myself and of course us in the first place. That's a shame you didn't give me the time to be alone when I asked for it but I might make a short movie in the future that explains a bit more in a more humorist way what have happened.

And remember, I really could melt your soul and make you feel protected, just needed you to be a bit more patient. *I was 1 and a half year patient* - bet you thought of it!!! Well, like I said, ALONE! Sometimes each of us must go on a rough solo journey to become a master team player. None of us were perfect, but it takes 2 imperfect people to make 1 perfect relationship as long as they try to understand each other.


By the way.... I know that you have blocked me off whatsapp.
If you wish to write too feel free to do so, I opened it for us.